Thoughts Run Wild [Edward]

[Isabella Swan]

Can we be more that predator and prey?
Is there a world where two species can be one?
Is there a world for you and I?
Or are we as forbidden as the fruit of knowledge?

Bella sighed roughly as she twiddled her thumbs on her steering wheel. Edward had not been in school today, this was obviously because of the sunlight that had peeked through the clouds for a day. So why was Bella still in the parking lot of the school at 7pm at night? Well, she was not still there. She had just gotten there, the idling of her car had proved that. She was here because she needed to think. She did not know why she had come here but she figured it was alright. She shut off her truck.

She got out of her truck and wrapped her coat around her more. The sun had just finished setting, there was still a little hue in the sky from where the sun was fighting to peek back over the horizon. Many called this time dusk, or twilight, Bella did not need a name for it, its beauty spoke louder than words ever could. Bella looked around before walking around the back of the school and out onto the fields, what was her purpose for this? She had no clue. She needed to sit and think.

She looked to the site at the slightly rusted bleachers and opted for grass. It was not wet since the sun had dried the dew for once. It was likely not as cold as the metal bleachers, so it fit. Bella walked to a random spot on the field and proceeded to flop onto the ground and lay back rather sporadically. She used a little more emotion and force than needed, but it suited for her current feelings at this time. Discontent? Confused? She did not know what she was right now, it was a jumble of feelings and thoughts making her go mad.

What was making her go mad? Edward. James. Jacob. Charlie. Mike. School. Friends. Homework. Love and Life along with the ever serious after effect. Death. She had so many thoughts going through her mind right now. There was the fact that she was having a growing infatuation with Edward that was very nearly bordering on the one word that did not work for her parents. Love. There was a psycho killer vampire on the lose who had his sights set on her, there was a good friend who hated the family Bella was growing to love. Charlie was... Charlie. Mike was trying to go after one of her friends but still wanted her. School and homework was annoying and her friends seemed to be getting on her nerve lately.

Bella sighed roughly as she looked up at the almost dark sky, her hand behind her head an her hair up. She groaned as she adjusted her position to where her hair tie was not stabbing her in the back of the head. She licked her soft pink lips as she thought about the fact that she was not technically supposed to be alone. She closed her eyes and breathed softly as she laid there and let her thoughts run wildly through her head destroying anything remotely sane about her life. She sighed again, this time more soft as she thought about Edward, could she really be falling for him, enough to say she loved him? Could she?

[Edward Cullen]

A vast mind, available to those who can see it.
It is not only visual, but it has no boundaries.
Unlocked for me.
Why this? Why the sudden difference?
She is far from my reach.
Too see within; nothing but darkness.
Mysteriousness replaces the light.
No power I have.

Edward was anxious. Why had Bella not yet returned home? Was she not worried about Charlie, worried that he won't find her there? Had she gone missing? Or even returned to her mothers arms?

Her scent was nowhere to be found. The last remains of it, were still at her home. The red truck that she drove, not infront of her driveway. Was she still at school? Had she never left? Edward hated all these curious questions of him, not being able to read her thoughts only limited him. Where could she be?

Edward drove to the front of the school and was somewhat surprised that Bella's truck was there, yet at the same time he had expected it would be.

It was twilight now. There she was, sitting by herself thoughts filled. But none however, reachable to Edward. He made the decision to go up to her and ask straight out; coming with the excuse that would she buy- He had needed to hand in his report, being due today. Since he was absent, he would hand it up when everyone had left.

Why she was still on school grounds? It was after all getting late, and there would be school tomorrow, yet again.
He sat next to her, just in return thinking of his own thoughts. His own questions that needed to be answered.

He faced her and raised a brow. " Would you like to go for a walk?" He smiled and stood up. Offering a hand.

[Isabella Swan]

As my thoughts run wild I can't help but think of you.
My sparkling angel. My tormented lover.
There is nothing in the stars of us is there?
For our love is not meant to exist.
Oh how the fates had been played against you and I.

Bella closed her eyes softly as she continued to think about the stresses of her life, though one was sticking out in particular. She shook her head softly as she tried to lift him from her mind, but it was impossible. You won't last forever. Her mind was dead set on telling her heart that there was no chance for them. Her heart had a different theory. Yes we can. All I have to do is erase myself from existence like he did. She felt a headache coming on as her mind seemed to starting a little fight. You'd willingly die for him!? This time she made the mistake of speaking for herself. "Hell yeah." She opened her eyes and say up. She sighed roughly. "Okay, I'm going crazy... I'm talking to myself." She groaned and put her face in her hands.

As she let a rather frustrated sigh escape her lips she heard someone sit beside her, she turned and gawked for a moment at Edward. What was he doing here. She shook her head and blinked for a moment. Damn him and his dazzling abilities. She thought bitterly before looking back at him as he looked back at her with one of his handsomely perfect eye brows raised ever so coolly. She leaned back a little to look up at him after he stood. A walk? She shrugged softly and gingerly reached for his hand and grasped it. It indeed was very cold, but Bella did not mind. She lifted herself off the ground and walked with him.

She looked down at the grass and sighed softly, her hand still gently grasping his. "You weren't in school today..." She whispered softly. She looked up at the stars silently after saying that and watched them twinkle. Her mind bitterly went to the play Romeo and Juliet. Star crossed lovers. Born to die for love. Two different family's. Two different lifestyles. Brought together by the one thing that would bring people together even centuries later. Love. The very thing that would too, tear them apart. Bella swallowed hard as she looked to Edward and then back at the grass. What if one was already dead? Maybe that kind of death was what Romeo and Juliet really needed. Maybe they needed to die and live again with no beating heart to be together, maybe the reason they did not last was because they were willing to give their lives for love, not their souls.

[Edward Cullen]

It is more than a bond between us.
The energy that surrounds us.
The air we breathe, the dirt on the ground.
The signs are there.
It is obvious.
Do you see them like I do?
Do you see me, the way I see you?

Edward was more anxious than surprised. She was lost in
thought, and he was still eager to find out all about her more than ever. She had agreed to join him for a walk. He smiled, and used his hand to lift her onto her feet. Her touch gave him a tingling reaction, impossible to feel for him and his kind. He liked it.

Bella had commented on him not being there for school. But he decided to ignore the question. He was not in the mood to talk about his absence. His long drive to the airport, nearly leaving Forks and her along with it. Unbearable.

He noticed that they were just walking around the fields, in circles in deep and utterly awkward silence. He laughed hoping to loosen the tention that he felt between them. " Not going all shy on me now, are you?" Smiling and winking at Bella.

Edward looked at her and creased his forehead. " So quiet Bella," He was whispering now, very lightly and voice full of curiousity. Yet still loud enough to be heard by her. Edward grabbed a lock of her hair and played with it. Hoping that somehow, she would feel comfortable enough around him.

He let go of Bella's hair and looked at her. Annalyzing her face and the reactions that were soon to be. He crossed one arm, while the other folded under his chin. He was just one step away from her now. He looked at her,full of curiousity. " Won't you tell me what you're thinking?"

[Isabella Swan]

I wish for you like the flowers wish for the rain.
My soul is lost in your eternal embrace,
and it never wishes to find its way.
Away from your embrace, they will try to take me.
I will fight to stay with you.
I will run from the morning sun and embrace the nightfall.
You are my life, you are my soul, you are my love.

Bella looked to Edward when he laughed. She was intoxicated by his laugh for a few moments. It was so jovial and it sent butterflies careening through her body. It made it hard for her to think, to even breath. Moments later she realized she had been holding her breath. She gasped and looked back down at the grass, her cheeks flushing. "No." She whispered softly, obviously not very convincing. She did not know if she could convince herself to not be shy around him, he made her that way. She was not usually a people person but she was not usually this shy either. Edward did this to her.

Bella swallowed softly and sighed. "Sorry, just my mind is wandering..." She whispered softly, suddenly she tensed a little. Edward was playing with a strand of her hair, she calmed nearly instantly after realizing it was Edward who was touching her. She smiled softly as she exhaled softly, the feel of his hands so close to her made her feel better. It was more of a comfort to know he could be close to her than anything. "It has been wandering a lot lately. Well, it always wanders... As you know by now I tend to over think things and I really shouldn't." She breathed deeply. "And now I'm rambling..." She muttered softly. "Sorry." She said as she looked to him and smiled faintly. She was trying to work up the nerve to answer a question that was likely coming next.

There it was. He wanted to know what she was thinking. He always wanted to know what she was thinking. She licked her lips softly. "Well... I was thinking a lot of things. I do not really know if they all go together or if they are just my mind running rampage again." She ran her fingers through her hair. The wind blowing a few strands lightly into her face as she licked her lips, still thinking. "Uhm... School, tests... My dad, my mom... Mike and Jacob... You." She whispered the last bit softly, hoping futilely that he did not hear her but knowing there was no possible way that he couldn't have heard her. She could have lip sinked it and he would have known what she was saying. He was Edward.

[Edward Cullen]

Wanting you.
In more ways than possible.
Thinking; nothing but you.
I'd waste the nights in sighs.
Hoping that tomorrow would come.
And your very presence would make nothing matter.
You've enchanted me, mezmorized me.
No longer will I feel.
Anything, but you.

Edward smiled, he was happy that Bella felt comfortable around him. Even comfortable with him, playing with her hair. He was content. He hoped for this, after all.

Even more so, when he was going to find out how she really was. How she felt. What she was thinking and... What she feels. The last, he was really waiting for. Counting down the moment till it happened. It made him excited.
The wind had blew past. Past her and nothing surrounded them, but her scent. It was mouthwatering...

Edward was uplifted when Bella had told him that she was thinking of him. He smiled, a half smile. One of his natural smiles that he had taken as a habit. She had whispered it, making him even more curious as to why he was amongst her thoughts. Perhaps, she did not want him to hear it? He laughed yet once again.

He deliberated before further actions were taken, but he wanted it so desperately, he could fight it no longer.

Edward took hold of Bella's hands. He pulled her towards him, now lightly caressing her. The warmth of her body was exhilarating. He was still wondering if he had gone way over the line. Was he making her uncomfortable? Was he pushing it? It mattered to him, no longer. He wanted this, it was enough. It was selfish of him. But for once, he just wanted to give in... slightly.

Edward kissed her head, feeling her soft hair on his nose. He ran his fingers through her hair. He was breaking loose and he did not care. It was an urge, an urge breaking from within him wanting to be released. Edward kissed her forehead and made his way to Bella's earlobe. "Be with me." He whispered, not as a question but matter-of-factly.

"Be with me." He whispered once again.
There was nothing more than he wanted than to do something highly human, right there and then. Something he wanted. Something that was bursting to be set free. Edward's mind was soaring, above and beyond. He took hold of her gaze, staring deep inside her eyes.

There was nothing more he wanted, than to kiss her.

[Isabella Swan]

If I gave you my all would you give me your love?
If I sold my soul to the darkness,
would you hold me in your embrace for eternity?
I fear losing myself to you,
I fear loving when it has forsaken me in the past.
I give my fears to you.
I love you.

Bella looked to Edward as he laughed not moments after she spoke of her thoughts of him. She was fully intent on being angry with him, but at the sight of his beauty in the moonlight as he laughed so freely, she could not bring herself to be mad at him, not even for a moment. He was like a magnetic force and she was the metal, being pulled to him, not matter how she tried to fight it, she was being pulled to him. The strange thing was, she no longer cared.

Bella gasped when she felt the chill of his hands on her own. Suddenly she was against him, a shock and thrill serged through her as she stood their, breathless, against him. It was like all of her dreams and fantasies, his arms caressing her so softly. She was in heaven. Bella realized that once again she had forgotten to breathe. She took in an haggard breath to try and regain her composure, as if she had any to begin with.

All compose flew out the window. The moment his lips touched her hair she was falling again. She was losing all sense of where she was and what was going on, all she could think about was Edward. His cool lips touching ever so softly to her forehead now. His body pressed softly against hers. His hands softly resting in her hair. The way her body seemed to melt in his arms. The way her lips quivered ever so softly at the feel of him so close to her, he was so close to her.

Be with me.

Bella's voice caught. She thought she was hearing things. Was she dreaming? There is was again, he asked it again, she could not be dreaming. Suddenly Edward was away from her slightly, he was looking deep into her eyes, as if he was waiting for an answer, as if he needed an answer. She would not be without him any longer, he wished to be with her as she wished to be with him. There was nothing in the world she would rather have that him. He and her. That was all that mattered.

"Yes." Bella whispered softly. Her hand gingerly edging toward his face. Suddenly her fingers made contact with the cold chill of his skin. Her fingers slid softly along his skin before her palm rested on his cheek. She continued to look into his eyes, her own full of love for him, clear tears brimming slightly, wishing to escape out of pure joy. "A thousand times... Yes." She whispered again as she looked into the eyes of the man whom had bewitched her. The man whom she loved, with all her heart and soul.

[Edward Cullen]

Behold the night.
For it shows the truth.
What we cower from, when all things can see.
But now that the time has approached.
No longer will I deny my desires.
I will be bold, and grow and live.
For I can not die. But no longer shall I lie.
I am nothing.
Will you take me?

Edward knew what he must do. But thoughts kept flickering inside his mind. How can he deny such a desire that has burnt his entire existence ever since he had met her? Foolish as his needs were, his intentions were clear. Edward and Bella. That all there was and will ever be.

His instincts were screaming from within him. This was not right, he was a vampire... a monster and she, a human girl. Not right at all. Edward ignored it. He knew what his true happiness stood, it was with this girl. Edward had never been like this before, but now he was in too deep. He was in love with Isabella Swan.

Bella obviously felt the same way about him. He was convinced. Or otherwise she wouldn't be allowing this kind of intimacy, they were very close. "Be with me." Edward had said more than once to her. She had agreed. "Yes."

An unknown feeling uplifted Edward and he could no longer hide his desires, although knowing they were wrong. Still looking within her eyes, captivated. Edward slowly lowered himself, making his way towards her neck. Her mouthwatering neck that intimidated him overwhelmingly. He kissed her softly, breathing heavily as he did.

He lifted his head slightly as if to see just the splendour of the sparkling intensity of the stars. " The night shows us what we want, but can't have. The time, it is the only oppurtunity that we can take hold of what we wish, take it and then... Live our dreams." He whispered, once again staring at the brilliancy of Bella's eyes.

Edward had not noticed but he was gradually getting closer to her. Her lips, mouth and everything involving a somewhat splendid kiss would involve, were just few inches away from him. He could not take it any longer.

His mind was battling his body, both having different preferances. Had he let his mind win, he would never have a shot at happiness for once in his life.
His body victored, as he slowly kissed Bella on her cheek.

[Isabella Swan]

What of this world of demons and angels?
What of this world of love and hate?
Could there really be a place for you and I?
Are we running from time or from destiny?
Is this how love is supposed to be?

Bella looked deeply into his eyes as she felt him nearer and nearer to her. She could not help but smile softly as she breathed slowly, taking in his scent, it intoxicated her. She shuddered softly at the feeling of his cold lips slide softly against her neck. She closed her eyes her hands itching to wrap around him but she could not help but know it was not right to do so, she did not want to make things hard for him and he had told her before her scent was intoxicating to him. She did not want to cause him pain.

When he began to speak, only a few inches or so from her she looked up at the sky, her blood was rushing through her veins and her heart rate was skyrocketing, he tended to have that effect on her. She shuddered at the words he spoke. She looked into his eyes. "But you can have what you see... You have it already. No matter if it the night or not. You have what you see." She whispered, looking deeply into his topaz eyes, her voice would have cracked if not for the whisper, he did things like that to her.

Bella closed her eyes and almost stopped breathing when he leaned down and pressed his cold but soft lips on her cheek. She exhaled softly as she felt his lips rest there on her cheek. Her hand slowly slid up his shirt to his chest where she allowed it to rest, gripping his shirt softly as she slowly - ever so slowly - moved closer to him, her chest nearly touching his and her eyes closed, reveling in the closeness of her and him. She was with him now, what did this mean? Were they dating? She was hoping it was something more...

[Edward Cullen]

Tempt me, and I shall follow.
For my own spirit, I already loathe.
Come into my hands. For they love you so.
And trust the opportunity of the night,
Which has been bestowed upon us.
Forgive me for my mischief.
I can no longer control my actions.
Here I am, to seek my love.
The final crime, is yet soon to be commited.

Edward felt the warmth of her cheeks. How he loved how her cheeks flushed when he said something right. Something that would make her heart beat ever so fast. Her reactions were what he seeked and Edward enjoyed every moment of it. Her smile, her actions, her scent. Deep in his mind, he knew he could not deny what he truly was, just to be with her. Although, he knew he could never, ever put harms way in her direction. That was the last thing that Edward wanted to think about, he had Bella. That was enough. Enough for now. Enough forever.

She had spoken of what was already obvious, to him. He could have he wanted, regardless of the night or not. He knew he did. But why was this battle happening within him? Yet again, he ignored it. Edward wondered how long he could deny what was wrong and what was right. Not long enough.

Bella had been moving closer to him. Edward smiled and once again kissed her neck. It was easier this time, her scent was not intimidating him any longer. Instead, it was making him move in ways he thought not possible. Edward stroked her cheek and tilted her chin up to his direction.
Edward tried not to think about his actions. How he prevailed, he did not know. He just did.
Edward moved closer to Bella. Close enough, that if either of them spoke. Their lips would touch.

[Isabella Swan]

She loved the closeness she had to him, she loved the fact that he made it so easy for her to be free with him. she could not stand to be away from him and now she was not going to be away from him. He has left, she could tell he had left because everyone was in school today but him. There was something about him leaving that made her heart sink and she did not want to think about something like that, it would drive her insane.

When she noticed that he did not mind that she was close to him she could not help but smile. It made her feel amazing to be near him and he literally took her breath away. Why he did things like this to her she could not understand, but it was an amazing thing and she never wished to be without it. She closed her eyes and concentrated on keeping calm as his cool lips pressed softly against her neck. She felt her heartbeat sky rocket and she had a feeling he would find this amusing, the blood pouring through her veins at that moment must have been intoxicating to him. She was a little worried about how much she hurt him, but right now she could not really think.

She looked up at him as he grazed his hand softly on her cheek. She looked deep into his topaz eyes and she felt herself melting all over again. The closer they got the more her heartbeat would quicken. She was going to have a hard attack if they kept at this too long. There lips were millimeters apart, so close that if one of them spoke or even moved they would surely touch, but she did not want them to simply touch. She wanted them to collide, to embrace each others lips in ways of passion and love that could not be described in words. She wanted it so much, but she was afraid to move, afraid he would run from her if she did.

[Edward Cullen]

Take my hand.
I give it to you.
Now you own me.
All I am.

Edward still wondered what she was thinking. It frustrated him that he couldn't read her thoughts. Yet, in the same way. He was content that he couldn't, he liked the mystery of Bella's unread mind. Bella's heartbeat was racing, this amused Edward and he just smiled. Hoping to get an even more amusing response out of this girl, that he was hopelessly in love with.

Her closeness was overwhelming to him. He despised himself for not leaving now. But, if he were to. He would only be a fool.
They were close. Way too close for predator and prey. He ignored his mind and followed his intuition. He brushed his hand from her cheeks to Bella's hair and moved her slightly- ever so carefully closer to his face.

Her scent was nauseating. Edward had no exact idea as how he was supposed to do what he was planning. Edward had never really thought about it, because of course no one had ever caught his attention like Bella had. He waited for a response from her. In doing so, he tilted his head sideways watching her soft, supple lips as he did. He blew in the last scent of her he could before directing his full concentration elsewhere.
"Kiss me, Bella." He whispered.

Credits for Lyrics:
I can feel you all around me- FlyLeaf

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